sometimes i feel like my walls are too high for me to breathe but i know that it has to remain that way. cos its the only way (that i know) to guard my heart.
no matter what people say or do, how you react to it is your fucking choice. dont you ever give anyone the permission to make you feel small.
some days i feel like i live my life in a third person perspective. i think it’s how i cope when i feel that life is too boring for me to live it fully. i keep running to external sources and doing things on impulse in search of a ‘high’ that i can’t give myself and honestly it’s getting so so tiring.
i just want my life to have some sort of meaning. so that when my time dwindles to nothing, i would know that i lived for something.