some days i feel like i live my life in a third person perspective. i think it’s how i cope when i feel that life is too boring for me to live it fully. i keep running to external sources and doing things on impulse in search of a ‘high’ that i can’t give myself and honestly it’s getting so so tiring.

i just want my life to have some sort of meaning. so that when my time dwindles to nothing, i would know that i lived for something.